have to buy funeral clothes, have to buy wake clothes, I do not own clothes for shit like that and i am still not really into this whole wake thing, sorry but shiva supremacy.
I am really mostly numb to this, and then guilt for numb.
my mom keeps asking me if I am sure i am ok and like, I have been sitting on your couch for over a year, are you serious.
And I just want to tell the story of the time my grandma gave my favorite childhood doll a makeover but that isn’t the kind of story you tell?
Sometimes I say things like “if i weren’t jewish i’d be catholic,” because lapsed catholic father, i guess, because nyc feelings, i guess? I guess but that is so so wrong, I am such a Jew, basically, I understand challah and shiva and opening the door for elijah and sukkot and blahlblahblah cultural judaism.
The thing is I think? that there is that same kind of cultural catholic thing, i have seen it in people I know, i think, and I don’t have that, I don’t think, interfaith babby problems?
Plus, everyone who hates on Liz Phair post-Liz Phair
But also like,